Waste of Time?

So, here we are.  l last posted on July 15, over a month ago.  Noone knows about this blog yet – I didn’t want to tell anyone yet precisely because I wasn’t sure I could sustain the momentum to keep adding to this thing.  All the usual culprits – work, family, other obligations.  But as is well known, people find a way to do the things they are passionate about.  I was, and remain, a dilettante at blogging, and I have to question whether this is really a hobby of mine if I can’t manage to keep up with it.  On a related note, time is really the enemy here.  I can’t focus on one thing at a time because of all the other things I feel I have to think about at the same time.  Blogging is an exercise in fighting away thoughts about bills, kids, school, leaky roofs, the family’s health, very ill patients, and a few other things.  So, time is the enemy, a zero-sum imperative, relentless – and you never get it back.  The most wonderful thing in the world would be to be able to just be here now, fully immersed in the moment, in flow, and just enjoy.  But, I have to catch up on paperwork, there’s bills to be looked at, I have to consider how we’re going to get the cars in for servicing without having to get a rental, and the kids’ lunches and dinners for tomorrow need to be planned.  No, I don’t do all those things myself, my wife is incredibly helpful, it’s just that all those things are ON MY MIND NOW.  Gotta go.  Maybe this blog thing is a waste of time.

~ by ashok on August 19, 2008.